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I have a terrible time sleeping.  It is terrible. Anybody have any suggestions.... besides benedryl or other drugs that make me have a hangover in the morning.

Well.. I am new here and am hoping that I can find some help, common ground... something.... My CPTSD comes from being married to, living with and taking care of a schizophrenic sociopath for nearly 18 years. He was a brilliant manipulator, violent, and so many other things that if I go in to all of it I will sit here sobbing for hours. And I dont want to give him the satisfaction of any more of my tears than are necessary. So, anyway, the problem is that although I am free from the relationship and have been for about 4 years now I seem to have developed some problems that I cant seem to control. My mind kind of checks out.. disassociates from what is going on around me. I can function physically but I am not "IN" the moment. Half the time I feel like an emotional wreck and that I am going crazy. And I am mad... very mad! Because I know what caused this. I used to be this strong person that could handle every situation. I was the take charge one. I did it all and could do it all. I now feel weak and unstable and useless half the time. My confidence level is soo stinking low. I feel like I am going crazy but from what I have read it seems that this is normal for this. I also am always trying to please everyone and am terrified of anyone being unhappy with me. I really dont know how to fix this. And I really hate sounding and being so unsure and helpless.