Hello. I'm back in therapy after a long lapse and finding that, altho I have compassionate friends who try to understand, I can't expect them to really get what I'm going thru and I need that. I retd to therapy when my chronic nightmares started to affect the daytime more and was feeling more jumpy etc. My new therapist is very affirming but looking this in the eye again has actually increased my anxiety. I lived most if my life in denial so recognizing it for what it is brings it's own new kind of stress and grieving. Was glad to find this forum. I was on ootf years ago when dealing with a disordered family member.