Hi everyone,
Thank you for taking the time to read this post. I apologize if the thoughts are random- I'm struggling to communicate what is going on in my brain. Here is a brief summary:
After almost 32 years of every form of abuse imaginable, I am struggling to recover, heal and lead a fulfilling life. In a nutshell- my family (with my mother at the core of it all) took immense joy in causing my extensive emotional and physical suffering, while convincing the world I am to blame and they are the victims.
I lived with my parents for over 30 years due to medical and mental illnesses that my family caused and used for their personal gain. I had no means to leave and believed I couldn't survive without them. After a coma they indirectly caused, I soon found myself facing homelessness, as my recovery was "burdensome" to them. I lived with an uncle for about six months, but left when the abuse from him and the guy staying with him became too great. The amazing support system I had, or thought I had, soon disappeared, thanks to my family. I ended up in a homeless shelter for 4 months and after finding a job and my own place, believed I was through the hardest part. Unfortunately, the struggle has just begun.
I got involved with a man who did a thorough job of destroying my life. I was forced to quit my job, he sucked me dry financially (what I had managed to save while at the shelter and earn working) and I found myself a complete emotional mess. It is has been nearly impossible to get any kind of assistance. Most require substance abuse issues (of which I have none) and an organization offering case management, counseling and housing support revoked the assistance, saying I had too much trauma (a much longer list than just the trauma mentioned here) to be able to be helped-no joke. I have to move out of my apartment at the end of this month (fortunately, not an eviction) and struggling to find a room to rent that I can afford and doesn't ask for a huge deposit. I have been unable to find a job, but at least have SSI for some income.
Struggling each day- emotionally, mentally, and physically. I'm working hard to heal and become stable/self-sufficient but it has not been easy when I've basically been doing it on my own. Support greatly appreciated!!!
Thank you for taking the time to read this post. I apologize if the thoughts are random- I'm struggling to communicate what is going on in my brain. Here is a brief summary:
After almost 32 years of every form of abuse imaginable, I am struggling to recover, heal and lead a fulfilling life. In a nutshell- my family (with my mother at the core of it all) took immense joy in causing my extensive emotional and physical suffering, while convincing the world I am to blame and they are the victims.
I lived with my parents for over 30 years due to medical and mental illnesses that my family caused and used for their personal gain. I had no means to leave and believed I couldn't survive without them. After a coma they indirectly caused, I soon found myself facing homelessness, as my recovery was "burdensome" to them. I lived with an uncle for about six months, but left when the abuse from him and the guy staying with him became too great. The amazing support system I had, or thought I had, soon disappeared, thanks to my family. I ended up in a homeless shelter for 4 months and after finding a job and my own place, believed I was through the hardest part. Unfortunately, the struggle has just begun.
I got involved with a man who did a thorough job of destroying my life. I was forced to quit my job, he sucked me dry financially (what I had managed to save while at the shelter and earn working) and I found myself a complete emotional mess. It is has been nearly impossible to get any kind of assistance. Most require substance abuse issues (of which I have none) and an organization offering case management, counseling and housing support revoked the assistance, saying I had too much trauma (a much longer list than just the trauma mentioned here) to be able to be helped-no joke. I have to move out of my apartment at the end of this month (fortunately, not an eviction) and struggling to find a room to rent that I can afford and doesn't ask for a huge deposit. I have been unable to find a job, but at least have SSI for some income.
Struggling each day- emotionally, mentally, and physically. I'm working hard to heal and become stable/self-sufficient but it has not been easy when I've basically been doing it on my own. Support greatly appreciated!!!