I also yearn for the love in others I never received as a child. My bf can't fill that void and I am so inclined to get needy because I feel my emotional needs aren't being met. This further makes him get distant and push me away. What I am learning slowly is God is the love and Father I need. It's hard so very hard to deal with CPTSD and have all this pain for no apparent reason. But when I pray and read the Bible I do feel better. Sometimes it's best to take a break from those we expect to fill us up. And to lean on God not our own understanding.
Ibelieve: God wants us to seek Him; he isn't far away in a cloud somewhere, He is omnipresent and with it even when we are in pain. Even though life has been tragic. He gave us all free will. I think he allows us to suffer to seek him for comfort and not anything or anyone else.
These are my beliefs and I take great comfort in them.
Ibelieve: God wants us to seek Him; he isn't far away in a cloud somewhere, He is omnipresent and with it even when we are in pain. Even though life has been tragic. He gave us all free will. I think he allows us to suffer to seek him for comfort and not anything or anyone else.
These are my beliefs and I take great comfort in them.