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Hi Indigochild,

Thank you for the article it was very interesting and has helped me understand CPTSD alot more. I do feel extremely powerless and alot of this has resulted from my siblings abuse. However it has also come from not been believed when I have spoken out about it. Even my own family have said I am the reason for the abuse, as if I deserved what I got. I feel powerless in a way that I have no control over my life, and Its as though I am afraid of my own shadow; I will flinch when someone calls my name. I am more of a flight person as I seem to see danger (which may not be classed as danger for others) and just have to get out of that situation..but then feel extremely ashamed of myself after getting away.

Thank you for replying to my post...

I don't really know how to to explain this. But all I know is that I seem to just completely freak out in situations which to others may be really minor and mean nothing. I don't understand why, but I spend hours after the event thinking about it , so many thoughts run through my head and I don't know how to deal with them. I become really upset and feel extremely low. In a constant low mood which I cannot get rid of. I try to move on from it but I find myself going on and on about it, which really annoys people around me. 
I guess I just wanted to see if anyone else felt the same way...?  I grew up in a one parent home with a extremely controlling sibling. Both my brother and my sister have autism and now my sister is out of the picture, I see my brother becoming the same abusive control freak my sister was.