I feel like I cannot work on myself or my issues because my husband needs my support to help him deal with his emotions right now. Since my actions have contributed to his emotional distress (anxiety and depression), I have put myself and the work that I need to do in order to heal and move forward aside. I know he would do the same for me. However, it is causing me to have more and more emotional flashbacks and I can't focus on getting out of them so I feel completely lost. I don't know what to do.
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General Discussion / How often do you see your Therapist?
April 11, 2017, 07:30:26 PM
Just curious. I am seeing mine once every 2 weeks. The past 2 weeks have been a real struggle and I wonder if I should be seeing T every week.
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Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Just starting out
April 11, 2017, 06:12:41 PM
Hi! I don't have any advice. I am new to this as well, but wanted to say "Welcome!". 
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Please Introduce Yourself Here / Loss opened up a tidal wave of repressed memories (My intro)
April 11, 2017, 06:06:23 PM
Hi All! I am so happy to have found this forum.
I am 47 years old, and 2 years ago I had memories of childhood sexual abuse resurface. Memories from when I was very young (3 years old). I shared all of them with my husband, read a little about adult survivors of sexual abuse, and went about living my life (was very high-functioning for awhile). Thought I was "handling it" until my father (adoptive father) passed away a few months ago. This brought about all sorts of emotional flashbacks: verbal abuse, physical abuse, alcoholism (both parents), abandonment at birth by my biological father, watching my mother die 6 years ago, and me, as the oldest child, having to take on the parental role at a very young age. I have been a mess since. 2017 has been a rough year, and I felt quite hopeless until about 3 weeks ago when my therapist said I was suffering from CPTSD, and shared Pete Walker's book with me. A light went off, and every page of the book I was thinking...."That is me. That explains so much." 47 years of self-hatred, negative self-talk, perfectionism, seeking approval from others, fear of failure, fear of loss, and so much more finally made sense.
I know I have a long road ahead of me. Clearly some days are better than others. I look forward to using this board as a place to find resources and support.
I am 47 years old, and 2 years ago I had memories of childhood sexual abuse resurface. Memories from when I was very young (3 years old). I shared all of them with my husband, read a little about adult survivors of sexual abuse, and went about living my life (was very high-functioning for awhile). Thought I was "handling it" until my father (adoptive father) passed away a few months ago. This brought about all sorts of emotional flashbacks: verbal abuse, physical abuse, alcoholism (both parents), abandonment at birth by my biological father, watching my mother die 6 years ago, and me, as the oldest child, having to take on the parental role at a very young age. I have been a mess since. 2017 has been a rough year, and I felt quite hopeless until about 3 weeks ago when my therapist said I was suffering from CPTSD, and shared Pete Walker's book with me. A light went off, and every page of the book I was thinking...."That is me. That explains so much." 47 years of self-hatred, negative self-talk, perfectionism, seeking approval from others, fear of failure, fear of loss, and so much more finally made sense.
I know I have a long road ahead of me. Clearly some days are better than others. I look forward to using this board as a place to find resources and support.
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