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Dan, 

Since your struggles appear to be anxiety related, I am wondering if you have looked into EMDR? If not, this might be worth your while. My current therapist uses this, and it has been the best thing for all of those sensations and feelings that are so hard to chase away. Another related therapy, is "Tapping". It is something you can do for yourself at any time or any place, and doesn't look out of place, so people don't look at you like you are going nuts. There is a lot about it on youtube.   I hope you find it interesting.

This is my first post-  I am hoping this is, a good place to be. I am a survivor of several types of childhood abuse, and later on domestic violence.  I have been diagnosed with cPTSD among other things, and have been in and out of therapy since 1992.  My latest therapist used EMDR, which was very effective, and I will be going back to do this again at some point. Right now I am having a very hard time because a co-worker verbally attacked me in a meeting on Thursday, and since then I have been a mess. I am afraid to go back to work- I did go for a few hours yesterday but left early, after staying in my office and working where I was safest until I had reports completed that had to be done. My boss had lunch with me and I gave her a very abbreviated explanation about my cPTSD and told her I need a few days to be okay before returning to work, which she is fine with. I am supposed to try to return on Monday. Honestly, I am trying not to cry all day long, and I am terrified I will come face-to-face with her in the hall or around a corner and will lose control and become a crying mess. I feel panicky, and am back in back places emotionally that I have not experienced in more than a dozen years. This makes me so angry- it is like all the progress I have worked so hard to make has been wiped away. I would love to hear from anyone who has had similar experiences, with advice on how I can get past this as quickly as possible. I don't like feeling like this and thought I was past this. Thank you for any help you can offer.