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My mother was a junkie/prostitute who was mentally and physically abusive. Was repeatedly molested, raped at age 12 then again at 16. My mom left when I was 12 been on my own ever since, lived in a religious cult for children for 3 1/2 years starting at 12 eventually put him in prison for 11 years but he's out now. 2 of my brothers committed suicide one I had to personally deal with all the details since no one else would including cleaning the room and house he killed himself in. Had a breakdown this year and now at 36 can't seem to push all of it down anymore, doing therapy, meds, was hospitalized this year but none of it is seeming to help. Can someone so messed up get over a lifetime of trauma?