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I'm full of rage.  I don't know what to do about it.  On any given day, I tend to disconnect from people and accept my status as a person alone, and that makes me feel a lot better.  I don't expect anyone to care and that feels like a relief.

One way to look at rage is that it can be a source of intense energy if you divert it into constructive activity.  Many people have found that exercise helps immensely, rather than just sitting there fuming and hurting and, often, sobbing.  I don't know how old you are or what your physical condition may be, but have you thought of running or fast walking, weight training, dancing (even if all by yourself), or swimming?  What I have discovered for myself is that any kind of action helps, especially if I apply the action to a problem I have been avoiding.  For me, it's probable that the rage is never going to go away (way too much **** over a long lifetime) so I try to turn that fire into constructive action.  This really helps.  And if I don't do something like that, I am apt to turn the rage on myself.  We all know how destructive that can be!

I don't know how this would work for others, but for me, one tab of Benadryl knocks me out for hours.  I do think sleeping meds are overprescribed and people often overlook much simpler and less damaging alternatives.  Everything depends on your collective 'cocktail' of course, and how bad your sleep problem is.  I'm just sayin' that if your sleep problem isn't extreme, try this and see if it works for you.  Benadryl has its own drawbacks of course, but they aren't nearly as extreme as some of the prescription pills I have taken in the past.  I'm not up on all the new stuff, though.