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I completely understand the feelings of not being validated - unless there is "physical proof" of something happening to you - and the panic of not being protected or cared for by those whom you love. I empathize and your emotions are valid and tangible.

For me, it is helpful to remember that I am the adult now, and I have the ability to care for myself where others failed me in the past. This type of thinking and mindfulness works for me, we each must find our own methods of coping that work for us.

Warmth and safety to you 

I developed Complex PTSD after being neglected by my parents, then suffering sexual abuse at the hands of a family friend, and being repeatedly victimized by multiple people in my life for decades.

Currently, I am almost a year and a half sober/clean and have spent that time in treatment and therapy, both in and out of facilities. I have spent many years not understanding why I do things the way I do -- until I accidentally happened on this diagnosis. Then, it was like a door opened and light came blazing through. Suddenly, my behavior, choices, thought processes, and relationship issues all made sense. Finally, I have something to work with.

For my recovery and healing journey from this point forward, I plan to educate myself about this diagnosis (and get an official diagnosis from a professional) then get into a therapy program that will directly address the COMPLEX portion of my PTSD because it is what will lead to my healing.