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Hi all, this is my first time posting on this site/forum.  Over the past few months I've come to realize that I have a lot of symptoms of cptsd, not just ptsd.  I'm talking with my therapist tomorrow for the first time to get some guidance, but I wanted to post here to ask how people have dealt with cptsd in relationships and just in their general personal life?  The more I read about how much this messes with relationships and trust, I get so discouraged.  As I'm sure many of the members here can resonate with the following, I've always seen myself as being able to recover from stressful situations and persevere and make progress by "being strong" and smart, but personal relationships always fall apart as soon as they start to actually require me trusting anything.  I'm starting to believe that I need to 'warn' potential future partners about ptsd/cptsd, like this is a mental health issue I have and it's going to make getting close to me, like genuinely close to me, a lot harder than for a 'normal' person.  I've worked through multiple addictions (clean and sober now) and I've felt so proud that I could really rid my life of those 'diseases'.  But this one feels so crippling, it's inside my mind and all the literature says that my mind really is crippled in a way.  I don't know really what I'm looking for from this post, maybe just hope that learning more about cptsd + therapy there's actually hope for living a life where I don't perceive everything as a threat. Thanks for reading <3