Hi soalone thank you for posting. Still haven't done my own intro and now wonder if subconsciously it's to avoid the guilt i feel whenever my trauma trophy seemingly overshadows the pain of people hurting no less than i am. There is no tool by which to gauge how deep trauma effects us nor any standard to measure one's feeling it's impact, emotionally, physiologically, or otherwise. It is too personal and as individual as your fingerprint. You did not ask for it, may remember none of it, but the mark left on you becomes your badge of a survivor. Not a half. Or junior. We survived, period. I say we own that, uh, sweet honey ice tea. For whatever it's worth.