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Hello backatcha.  When I read your post this morning I could see that in so many ways we are like a human forms of pandora's box.  I imagine that when we are in the company of "normal people," it highlights how abnormal our experiences and relationships have been. My emotions bubble over unexpectedly when I see my friend's husbands treating then with kindness and love.  On the other hand...I react viscerally (and need to leave soon after) when I see my friend's husband's treat them callously or dismissively. It takes me the rest of the day to get over it.

I look forward to the day when my pandora's box is empty and I can start putting beautiful treasures inside.

It feel so hopeful to be here.

I have found my tribe it seems. It is hard to summarize myself quickly but here goes...I found out I was adopted at 27 by accident. My adopted mother was a borderline personality but my father was a gem. I was married to a narcissistic man for the past 26 years. I left him 1 and a half years ago. He was atrocious and a clinical psychologist to boot. Gaslighting has been my life.
Almost all of the bullet points for complex trauma apply to how I feel about myself. I am currently getting help from a counsellor at the grief center where I live.

I am ashamed of my condition.