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Thank you for the warm welcomes.  I am amazed, as someone who relies on my communication skills, how daunting it is to post in a forum like this.  I am sitting at my desk in my office, googling information that I will never use for things I don't care about, and looking for some kind of connection.  I have little to no connection to actual humans, as I find it nearly impossible to trust in others.  I do have two sweet dogs who keep me grounded and alive though.     I have been reading many of the posts here and seeing that there is definitely safety and respect built into these forums and I look forward to learning of others experience.

Hi, my name is Wic and I am 59 years old.  I live in Canada.  I have been living with CPTSD for most of my adult life having been raised in a family with alcoholism, narcissism, sexual/physical/emotional abuse.  I am also a social worker, in the field for 30 years and a counsellor as well.  I truly don't know if I will ever be able to overcome the symptoms of CPTSD even though I have an excellent therapist who is an expert in the area.  I have spent years in therapy, on and off medications and have tried various means to heal my life.  I have a history of suicide attempts (hope that is okay to say) and abusive relationships with both men and women.  I am currently living alone and have virtually no friends but have my aged mother staying with me during the pandemic (she is a classic narcissist).  I'm not sure what I am looking for from OOTS, my therapist recommended this as a resource.  I just wanted to make my presence known and reach out.  Thank you.