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Very Foggy,

Thank you again for your genuine and honest response. It is really helping to validate what I have been feeling for so long. Like I said my childhood was difficult but I always felt weak for wanting the things that I missed out on in my childhood. Anytime I would feel the desire for love or a hug, my inner voice would tell me to suck it up and get over it because things could have been much worse. I understand that I need to learn to love myself but some times I feel resentful and cheated. Why couldn't my parents have done this for me? I also hate the pain the comes with it. Anyway I am working on it with a very supportive and caring therapist. Thank you also for the book recommendations.
Sincerely,
Ltlgrv

Very Foggy,

Thanks you for your reply. I am looking forward to researching your website and soaking up as much information as possible and obtaining the tools to help me recover. Like you said, now that I know what is wrong, I can begin the recovery process. While I have a very strong support network, my biggest challenge right now is trying to fill the void that comes with the emotional flashbacks. I have ordered Pete Walkers book "CPSTD:From Surviving to Thriving" but I would appreciate any additional recommendations.
Thanks for listening,
Ltlgrv

Hi there,

If you had asked me last month if I suffered from any form of PTSD let alone CPSTD, I would have responded with a definitive no. I have never experienced visual flashbacks and in my head, while my childhood was difficult it wasn't horrible. It was nothing like some of the horrific child abuse stories that we hear so often today. Then, last week my very wise and caring therapist suggested that I check out the complex PTSD website. When I checked out the website and started reading about CPTSD, I thought "oh my gosh" this is me. Especially, the emotional flashbacks. In the past when I would have these flashbacks, it was hard for me to put into words what they felt like but they always made me feel like a little kid. To finally have a name for them is such a relief to me. I am just starting to learn more about CPSTD and I am so grateful that your website exists to provide support and a safe place for folks to share their experiences.

Sincerely,
Ltlgrv