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I can relate, Hope. My personality seems to be different at different types of the day.

Sometimes I like something new. Sometimes I like something routine. Sometimes I want to be alone. Sometimes I want to be with others.

We're all different, and I'm happy to hear you're trying to understand our complex natures.   

Wow, that's amazing Elpha! So much positive change in your life now. It's much more comfortable to live this way. 

Hi there, San. I'm new. I've been following you for a bit before I became a member,  and I thought I'd stop by.

I understand how it can be tough. People just push and push and push, and it could be very hard to push back at them.

But I believe in your strength, San. I really do.

Yes, keep going, Estella. You're doing great. Healing addictions take time, and any progress you have takes time.

Thank you Estella.

I'll lurk more than post, but I'm glad to interact a little here. I'll try to open up over time, but for now, even this little post is a little too much for me today. I haven't admitted to anyone past my therapist and one close friend about going through trauma, and a public forum where anyone can read my posts is a little quesy for me.

But I will try to stay.

Hi, 3 months ago my therapist told me I had PTSD. When I googled online, I found out about CPTSD. It was crazy, but I feel that I finally found the explanation for much of the suffering in my life. I've been lurking here ever since then, but I was too shy to post until now.

You see, I'm not ready to talk about my past here yet, but I at least wanted to say hello. Is that alright for now? I've actually become a fan of some frequent members of the group, and I wish I could talk to them soon.

Anyway, I call myself SpacePasta due to one of my students as a highschool tutor joking around about the religion of the Flying Spaghetti Monster. I didn't know much about it, but for some reason, I actually laughed a little. My own trauma has burdened for me to be serious, but something about this silly joke made me laugh.

So hello? Yes, hello.