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Thank you all

The more I read the more it is beginning to make some sort of sense. In one way it shocks and even scares me just how severe my condition really is. However, it is also amazing to finally have a reason for all that I do, finally know why I am as I am.... that is something else.

This horrible year is almost over.Once more I am alone tonight as I was over Christmas. The loneliness is beyond words at times, even when I am around people.

Let.s hope 2018 starts the process of a happier life. My therapy starts on 5th January and I am counting down the days.

Stay strong

Thank you all.

I am still getting my head around it all and reading upon CPTSD. It is scary, but also eye opening.I now know what it is and a few things have already made sense.

For the first time that I can ever remember I feel as if I have a chance at life. I have no idea what lays ahead, but I am ready to do what I need to, starting with the therapy.

Thanks again

Ant

Hi All

I have diagnosed with CPTSD just a few weeks ago. I start trauma-based therapy in January. I was diagnosed with Severe thought based OCD 4 years ago and they say I have had these conditions for around 40 years. It stuns me I was never diagnosed. I tried to take my own life in 1988 but was thankfully saved. TheCrisis team asked me if I was going to try it again and dismissed me after I said NO!

Under severe stress I have turned to gambling online. They say I do it to escape reality. It has ruined my marriage and i feel cheated out of my life at times. I want to live a better life and I am fully committed to the therapy I will be starting soon. I know it will not be easy and will take time, but I am finally on the right track.

OK, not wanting to waffle on too much.

Hi from me

Ant