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Thanks for all of your replies! It's definitely true that no two people are alike. It's just nice to speak to some other people who can relate. Sometimes I feel very alone with this.
I'll have a read through some of the other posts too.

Hi everyone,

This is my first post and a couple of times have joined forums similar to this only to not have the courage to say anything. I've decided to try posting though as what's the worst that can happen?
I don't want to take up so much of your time reading this so I'll try to summarise my issues as briefly as possible.
Growing up I had an alcoholic mother along with a disinterested father and the combination of the two meant that the responsibility of looking after my siblings was left to me. I never felt loved or like there was anyone there to take care of me and my home environment generally felt unsafe. I haven't been diagnosed with anything but as an adult I mostly feel numb along with episodes of sadness every now and again which feel completely overwhelming. I also seem to have blanked out some of my memories and when I think of my childhood I struggle to remember certain events.
To try to help with this I'm talking to a therapist weekly and she is working with me to try to increase my self esteem. It's early days but I will see where it goes.
My Mother isn't around any more (alcohol won in that case) and I have a better relationship with my Father as an adult than I did when I was younger. I still don't feel like I can talk to him about this though.

I was just wondering if anyone here has experienced something similar?

Thanks for reading.