For so many years I've been whatever others wanted me to be. I had no real identity. But recently I've come to discover I don't truly know who I am. I'm in the grief stage, and I'm finding out that I don't really like who I was when in survivor mode. Right now I'm just numbing my way through it all. Things I once enjoyed have no meaning to me anymore. I question everything, it's this who I am, is this really something I want or something they wanted? It seems to be alot and I'm finding it difficult to face myself through the cities of walls I've built to protect myself. I'm going to get the book by Pete Walker and start off there. Any suggestions on working through finding my true self and who I really am?