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Thank you for your replies. Dee, thanks for your online teaching suggestion, I've definitely been considering that, maybe I should just give it a go

Hello. I just discovered this forum tonight and I am so glad I did. I have read so much from you all that I can relate to, and that is not a feeling I have really had before. I have only recently been diagnosed and what an interesting feeling to read about C-PTSD! I finally have some language to describe my experience and some tools to learn how to use. The big thing I am finding interesting is that others here are sharing similar experiences to my own around work. I have a really hard time staying positive about jobs, I end up getting really frustrated with people and my reactions to stress makes me appear really unstable. I am really fortunate in that I have recently been able to take a break. My wonderful husband has supported me in taking a couple months off work to allow some space for me to try to figure out a better fit. I have come to the conclusion that working from home might be the best, as it would allow me to minimize my contact with other people, but I am trained as a teacher and I have yet to find a remote job that I am qualified for / interested in. I'm starting to get scared of having to just get any job as we are running out of money. I have never been able to have a break before, as I have been working and supporting myself since I was 13. The comfort of feeling so supported by my husband and the calm I have felt from not having to work has allowed me to feel safe and in turn has brought up a lot of vulnerability that I guess I did not feel able to explore before. I don't want to return to the stress. I am so enjoying this healing time! Has anyone else experienced anything like this? Does anyone have any suggestions about how to create a healthier relationship to work? Thank you to everyone here for sharing, I appreciate your stories.