Thank you both for taking the time to reply. I really appreciate it as I cant talk to anyone else about this stuff.
My name is untraceable. But good call
With regards to mine and my wife's personality disorders, I have been studying psychology in an amateur way for about 10 years. My useless psychologist told me I had a personality disorder but when i asked for more info he refused to tell me. He believed in a sort of Buddhist karma kind of treatment where if I completely accepted my problems they would go away, and my interest in learning about them was stopping that working. I told him I was an engineer, I need to know how everything works. You can only fix something if you know how it works. That's how I work. But he didn't.
I may be many things (worthless, a disappointment, an embarrassment etc etc) but I am not stupid. I can read research and understand. I spent a lot of time researching personality disorders and I have no doubt that I have avoidant personality disorder. Maybe it is caused or exacerbated by other things, but it is still present none the less. And my wifes borderline PD is also very obvious. But she has got that under control in recently. We haven't had a aggressive outburst for 3 years. Which is great, but the stress of dealing with that has obviously worsened my C-PTSD.
I was on 100mg seretraline. It works for a couple of weeks and then stops. Others I have read about with similar symptoms take 200 to 250mg a day. Its fantastic when it works. Not only do I become normal. I actually forget that I was ever any other way. Memory is part of your mind after all and mind altering drugs alter memories as well.
Memory is a big thing to me. My short term memory is terrible and on zoloft it improves noticeably. Zoloft also allows me to pick and chose my memories. At the moment I deliberately don't try to remember anything about my past as it leads me to remember something I did or said that I regret and that triggers anxiety attacks. If anxiety is the correct word for them. They are more physical that psychological. On zoloft I can remember the good things that happened and laugh. It gives me back my past.
anyhow, enough of my waffle. thanks for reading.
My name is untraceable. But good call
With regards to mine and my wife's personality disorders, I have been studying psychology in an amateur way for about 10 years. My useless psychologist told me I had a personality disorder but when i asked for more info he refused to tell me. He believed in a sort of Buddhist karma kind of treatment where if I completely accepted my problems they would go away, and my interest in learning about them was stopping that working. I told him I was an engineer, I need to know how everything works. You can only fix something if you know how it works. That's how I work. But he didn't.
I may be many things (worthless, a disappointment, an embarrassment etc etc) but I am not stupid. I can read research and understand. I spent a lot of time researching personality disorders and I have no doubt that I have avoidant personality disorder. Maybe it is caused or exacerbated by other things, but it is still present none the less. And my wifes borderline PD is also very obvious. But she has got that under control in recently. We haven't had a aggressive outburst for 3 years. Which is great, but the stress of dealing with that has obviously worsened my C-PTSD.
I was on 100mg seretraline. It works for a couple of weeks and then stops. Others I have read about with similar symptoms take 200 to 250mg a day. Its fantastic when it works. Not only do I become normal. I actually forget that I was ever any other way. Memory is part of your mind after all and mind altering drugs alter memories as well.
Memory is a big thing to me. My short term memory is terrible and on zoloft it improves noticeably. Zoloft also allows me to pick and chose my memories. At the moment I deliberately don't try to remember anything about my past as it leads me to remember something I did or said that I regret and that triggers anxiety attacks. If anxiety is the correct word for them. They are more physical that psychological. On zoloft I can remember the good things that happened and laugh. It gives me back my past.
anyhow, enough of my waffle. thanks for reading.