I am finally at a point of trying to sort out my childhood traumas after getting away from a NPD BF. To this day, he still tries to manipulate me and blame me for all our problems. As a child, I was sexually assaulted on many occasions by my brother and another family member. My dad abandoned me when my mother had an accident and was hospitalized for a year. After she got out of the hospital; I spent my childhood raising myself. I am slowly putting pieces of the puzzle together to think that my dad was molesting my brother hence he molested me. My mother got pregnant with me to spite my dad. I was always told I wasnt good enough and wouldnt amount to anything. There are plenty of bits and pieces of memories surfacing and I am trying to learn how to deal with them...what to do with them...
I am sure its going to be a rough journey, but hopefully will be worth it.
I am sure its going to be a rough journey, but hopefully will be worth it.