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Thank you all for advice and support. I actually just started individual therapy again. Hopefully that will do some good.

My relationship of four years just ended last week.
We've both been really low this past year. We both struggle with a lot of emotional issues and while it's been good to be with someone who understands its also been hard being there for each other and trying to figure out how to take care of ourselves.
We weren't unhappy with each other, just with ourselves. When he started the conversation, he told me the therapist he's been talking to suggested he take some time to focus on himself outside of a relationship. He also told me that he can't make any promises about the future, that this has to be a break up rather than a break. He thinks it's healthier that way. All the reasons make sense. I told him that maybe it would be for the best. I also need to find a way to focus on recovering. We cried together for a couple of hours and just talked about how hard things have been and how hard they were gonna be without each other. We are each other's best friends. His dog was basically mine too. My whole world has been him for so long.
I keep wondering if this is a mistake. If there's a better way. I suggested couples therapy to him. Maybe a therapist could help us figure out how to balance working on ourselves and being together. He said it was something to think about but that he wasn't sure that was best because it still takes focus off of bettering ourselves.
I just can't believe that any of this is real. I've only just recently found out that I have C-PTSD and I don't know how hard finally working through this is going to be. I know I've been putting it off a lot, so this may be a push to finally work on it for real. Maybe I do need to do that alone, but I just can't help but feel like this is all wrong and that if we tried hard enough we could do this together. But I don't want to be selfish. He seems to believe this is what he really needs and I want him to finally really be happy.

So, I'm new here. I recently started looking into C-PTSD and learning about it and realized that this is what I have been struggling with for my whole life.
I have been diagnosed with MDD, PTSD, Anxiety disorder and a sleep disorder and I feel like all of that fits into this one diagnosis that I had never even heard of before.

A brief history of me and what brought me here:

I'm a 25 year old daycare teacher and aspiring writer. I was emotionally and sexually abused for the first 12 years of my life by my father, along with watching my mother go through physical and emotional abuse as well. We finally escaped when I told my mother what was happening to my sister and I. He is currently in prison, possibly up for parole in about 3 years. My mother became an alcoholic and has also been very emotionally abusive herself ever since.

My sister has two beautiful children now who I adore. They are the best part of my life. I have a great guy in my life who I have been with for almost 4 years. I like dogs, candy, video games, reading, writing and drawing, musicals (though I haven't seen nearly enough), attempting to keep plants alive, and hanging out with the kids at work. My best friends are all four years old. My current favorite movie is Guardians of the Galaxy: Vol. 2.

So those are the basics, I guess.