Recently i sent an email to my dad saying that it is too emotionally taxing for me to see them every month.
I didn't expect a response and part of me is thankful that I haven't received one.
I would've liked though to get a response, that my dad feels some kind of desire to be in communication with me rather than the thoughts that he doesn't want me as his daughter, that he doesn't love me or care about me.
I also sent me brother a text message asking if he would like to have dinner with me, of which I have heard nothing.
So right now I feel pretty worthless and am pushing people away because I wonder what they see in me of value that my family doesn't or doesn't care about.
I didn't expect a response and part of me is thankful that I haven't received one.
I would've liked though to get a response, that my dad feels some kind of desire to be in communication with me rather than the thoughts that he doesn't want me as his daughter, that he doesn't love me or care about me.
I also sent me brother a text message asking if he would like to have dinner with me, of which I have heard nothing.
So right now I feel pretty worthless and am pushing people away because I wonder what they see in me of value that my family doesn't or doesn't care about.