Thanks for the words of encouragement,
My abuse as a child was physical from mother and a long term sexual abuse from a "friend of the family" who baby sat me. like many abused children I went on to join the military at age 18, I also discovered alcohol. I took the trade of bomb disposal operator and through various operational stress injuries, the memories of my childhood abuse came swarming back, like an endless tape mixed in with some new trauma. In 2000, I left the military, was basically kicked out of my house and a new man moved in and I ran away as a contractor to various war zones to perform humanitarian defining all the time adding to my trauma in some of the most horrific ways possible. I crashed in 2014 and ended up in hospital for a month and then went to rehab, I am proud to say, that I have more than 3 years sobriety
My abuse as a child was physical from mother and a long term sexual abuse from a "friend of the family" who baby sat me. like many abused children I went on to join the military at age 18, I also discovered alcohol. I took the trade of bomb disposal operator and through various operational stress injuries, the memories of my childhood abuse came swarming back, like an endless tape mixed in with some new trauma. In 2000, I left the military, was basically kicked out of my house and a new man moved in and I ran away as a contractor to various war zones to perform humanitarian defining all the time adding to my trauma in some of the most horrific ways possible. I crashed in 2014 and ended up in hospital for a month and then went to rehab, I am proud to say, that I have more than 3 years sobriety