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Thank you, everyone. I've managed to calm down a bit, and this week has been better. I've been less anxious. That breathing thing works well. Now I'm finding myself putting pieces together, seeing patterns over the years in my responses to groups of people and individuals who triggered me. Building that kind of understanding seems to be helping wit making sense of my experience. I find myself struggling to know what to do with it all. At any rate, thank you all for your support.

Hello, everyone. I'm new to this forum. I'm new to CPTSD. I read an article in a magazine about it in hopes of helping a friend, but instead I identified with it. The symptoms mirror my experience too well. I haven't been diagnosed by a clinician, and am scared even to raise the possibility for some reason. Maybe I'll be told I don't have it, which means I'm just a depressed anxious person at my core. I'm even afraid to post this, but don't know why.

I'm struggling right now. I read the article on an airplane on Sunday, patterns emerged, and memories flooded back. Now I can't get numb. Anxiety is tearing me down. I'm a professor, and walking into my classroom has become terrifying. All the fear of being a 12 year-old and being bullied is rushing back in. I've had the screw-in-the-gut feeling of the anxiety non-stop since Sunday. I feel like I'm losing my mind.

I'm going to end there. I'm sorry this post, my first, is so scattered. Writing is normally like breathing for me, but I can't organize my thoughts.