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This book may have some serious trigger warnings for a lot of people but I would really like to suggest it. It is an excellent story the 3^rd worst case of child abuse the state of California had ever seen. Its is a tear jerker from start to finish but is a huge help in my opinion.

My Story by David Phelzer

❤️"You can heal your life"❤️

Louise Hay

Thanks for sharing seem like a very useful website 

The road less travelled is a great one its problem focused & solution based. The examples given are just brilliant.

I love Brene Brown so much she just has a lovely way of explaining here is one of her videos from ted but you've probably already seen it. But, if you haven't, its bit long but so worth the watch.

https://embed.ted.com/talks/brene_brown_on_vulnerability"

Here are some of the books I've been reading I believe they can help anyone.


1.Dave Pelzer / My story This is a really sad account of major abuse which may cause triggers.....He gives a full detailed account & there is a sliver lining
2.Louise Hay / You can heal your life
3.Heidi Sawyer / Highly Intuitive People
4.Mindfullness finding peace in a frantic world
5.M. Scott Peck / The Road less travelled
6.Victor E, Frankl / Mans search for meaning

What i found to be very helpful was focusing on the more intense subjects like abnormal psychology which it has to be for some of us  then when we find the deeper meaning move on to the positive stuff like number2. Although, she suffered a terrible trauma also which is described in the book she focuses on getting past it instead of becoming part of it. That's what i did for years became part of it until i became aware of myself which lead to a serious wake up call.

All I can say is believe in yourself. I hope there is something here to help people 

Congrats great poem 

This is a great website i use it a lot i find it very help full & it is full of useful info

https://www.skillsyouneed.com

Hi Texannurse,

I can also relate. It is definitely not a nice feeling when we feel alone.   

Every person is different we all have our own ways but i also found when I came to the reality of what I thought was normal I was totally in shock. 3 years later and I am still only coming to terms  . Its a long journey but it will get better

I found great comfort in my pets. Also focus on yourself, a lot. Find out who you are and what you love. Make yourself your own project . Put yourself first 

Hi Thank you both for your replies i have been reading there are lots of great resources on here

Hi Pippa,

In relation to your husband i cannot relate but to the childhood i can. I found out through constant research my mother is a narc but it doesn't make it any easier but when you actually come to terms with all the stuff that happened to your it makes moving forward that little bit easier. Research is the key i have found one thing will lead to another making things seem a little bit easier.

I find myself disconnected all the time. I prefer my own company. I don't feel comfortable around people even tho i know this is all me  its veryyyyyyyyyy hard to change it. Have you tried CBT ?

I found when it all came to light everything was weird. Probably because the reality was not really all that real. Do you find you see everything very differently now ?

I find working from the past all the way through most helpful it releases all the pent up tension (this doesn't work for everyone). That hardest part is thinking how did this happen to me. I read a lot of psychology to make more sense of life.

Hope this gives some help

Hello everyone,

First post.

My Mother is a Narc she was terrible growing up she was never around haven't a clue where she would be. I grew up in her original house it was very dysfunctional we lived with her whole family. I can kind of see how she became this way but it doesn't make it OK.

She was never around growing up, if she was she would be screaming, shouting slapping. Always, leaving us with others. i watched my uncles kick the * out of each other growing up. One of them was always in trouble with the law and trying to commit suicide must be where i learned it from. :falling bricks: He was horrible to my father always calling him names to us and beating him when they would be around each other in front of us all i can assume is this was because of what she was telling them about him they believed her even tho she was running around with other men, one in particular i remember, she used to take me with her and tell me all her * secrets. 

We eventually moved to a new house. Same here she was never around and worked her way around my fathers schedule so she would not get caught. Me and my other sister raised the other ones i became very rebellious drinking, doing drugs and sleeping with anyone for affection but it didn't give me any this behaviour carried its way all through my 20's.

I left school very young when this happened this was her perfect opportunity to get her claws in. I completely isolated myself about 3 years later never left the house unless it was to go somewhere with her we argued from morning to night. She knew where all my triggers were, she was awful because of this.  :falling bricks: I would go shopping with her at the checkout she would make a remark in front of everyone about how i don't pay for anything  it was so embarrassing that i eventually stopped going inside the shop. I still react to this one (NOW) She turned the whole family against me in different ways even tho we lived together!!!

I was suffering with severe depression but i never knew what was wrong with me and anytime I would do research or anything to get stuff to read I would have to hide it because she would either make fun of me, tell me not to be so stupid or take it and say she didn't.  She would tell the whole family not just immediate what I was reading or whatever and they would make fun of me too. Sounds so petty but my got it was traumatizing she used to take my mail, tell people i wasn't there, eventually it all became normal i never questioned it. She told all her brothers and sisters i was a very bad child that there was something wrong with me.

I used to try and please her but now when i think about it I'm baffled how she did it.

I eventually said to myself i need to get out of here away from her and i did  then i ended up here again after 2 years. Decided i needed to leave again and guess what here i am again i don't know why i keep coming back i already know its a nightmare and she will never change. Its like when the going gets tough i come but this is worse and i know it.

I have a very hard time struggling with day to day. People think its excuses but its not i haven't worked in so long in my own country i think it is in relation to her. I'm not great around people I'm very self conscious and feel like people just don't like me.   

There is much more to this story but I'm sure its a good enough outline to give an idea.

I have done number amounts of personal development i read about it and how to get over it all the time i am taking psychology courses but i just don't feel anything I'm getting much better, but i still don't like to go out to much, hate crowded places and i have no friends because i feel like i just can't connect with anyone. How do i get over this its not a case i have not tried i have.