I fee that. I also have C-ptsd with an acquired brain injury though. I envy your courage as I have never made it to the brain injury support group in my area.
. It seems I always feel so different from everyone else that I don't fit in (in my mind anyway). It also seems others don't meet my definition of safe. The brain injury really set me off on a down road. I have in the past found if you keep at it, things get more comfortable. I hope you keep going. Dealing with the BI on your own is not easy. My heart is with you.
. It seems I always feel so different from everyone else that I don't fit in (in my mind anyway). It also seems others don't meet my definition of safe. The brain injury really set me off on a down road. I have in the past found if you keep at it, things get more comfortable. I hope you keep going. Dealing with the BI on your own is not easy. My heart is with you.
I'm looking for some idea of what a "normal" or healthy action to take in my situation. I am in a geographical area where the abuse rates are double the rest of the state and the state is in the top area of percentages of other states. The culture is to me an abusive culture and they seem to have no idea what abuse actually entails. And that's just the medical professionals. I'm witnessing ethical mishandling of others' and my own personal medical info and when/if I speak up my doctor becomes very threatening with mislabeling me and withholding medication and firing me as a patient. It has taken me 6 years to get any treatment so I am put in such a position that I put up and shut up or I suffer the damages of no treatment at all. I often find here that if you need any help at all the price is disempowerment. I already have injury from lack of access to treatment options and my sense of integrity is greater than most. If I try to be reporting this anonymously it will still be too obviously me. I hate that I'm in this position once again. It seems my life's work is to be put where I can see wrongdoing, due to my hyper vigilant mindfulness (superpower) of when things aren't right and harm is in the air. I've tried all the normal actions in the past but the gaslighting of whistleblowers is their go to medical decision. It's one thing to defend only myself but many others are being violated by the disregard of morals ethics and values. If i am to live I need the access to medical help. So? Any thoughts? My conscience is hurting here!