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Thanks, Mourningdove. I promise I haven't joined this forum to gain free therapy. Starting from scratch kinda' sucks, you know? I just have some questions I'm sure have been covered a million times. I really, really appreciate the help, and hope all is well with you.

This may be a silly question...... Does anyone ever feel like they are "fighting" against getting help? Contentment in what has now become a familiar state of being? I know of many things I need to do start helping myself, but it is a struggle. I assume that tends to be part of Complex PTSD, but perhaps I'm just overthinking or mistaken. Sorry, just new to the discussion and trying to understand.

Thanks for reply! I'll definitely check out the link. The psychiatric drugs..... actually one in particular was a nightmare for me as well, and it always seemed that the therapist was taking a shot in the dark in trying to find one that worked w/o side effects. Maybe I just never found the right one(s) for me. I really appreciate your suggestions.

Thank you so much for the reply! I was supposed to try EMDR last week with a new therapist, but had a full-blown anxiety attack at his office. Hopefully, will get to try it Monday, He did refer to one of the books you referred, so I'll definitely check it out as well as the other. Unfortunately, I feel like the walls are closing in as I will soon be unemployed and losing my insurance unless something happens quickly..... thus my sadness at getting such a late start for true treatment. I quit all meds a couple of years ago after a terrible experience that scared me away from them, but I would honestly try anything that may help. Thanks again

Sorry.... when I said "problem at hand," I was referring to C-PTSD itself. I've been in therapy for years, but I'm coming to believe treatment was always focused on PTSD and not Complex PTSD, which I had never heard of. When I was treated at inpatient facility, it focused on alcohol issues resulting from my disorder as the real problem instead of a symptom. I've been on disability from work for quite a while, but my time is up.....and I can't go back. Hard to explain why. I can only say I'm thankful for this site, as my wife read the article on "What It Feels Like" this morning, and it is truly the first time I think she somewhat understands. I have never been able to describe it in words, and actually I am just now getting info to understand myself. Unfortunately, the information is several years late, and I feel like I've been chasing my tail with treatment all this time. Thanks to all

Sorry, I'm completely new to this site and the format. Not doing too well at the moment,,,,,can anyone recommend a treatment program that seems to help? It seems, from experience, that most treat the after-effects other than the problem at hand. I'm sorry anyone is experiencing this issue, but it is nice to know I have sisters and brothers out there. Thanks