I am new. I am still in your position. Married 22 years, 3 adult boys. I feel like I am going crazy. I pray he will just leave me. I do not have resources or strength to leave him. I pray he will just leave me. I am happy for you bs651644 that maybe your days have some relief. I have been trying to write down my own thoughts in a blog since this new year. It's very hard. I make now sense most of the time. I am happy for you if you get some peace.