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Thank you all, that all just made me feel 100% better   

I've experienced these before--I rub my palm with my opposing thumb, and rub my earlobes.

I'm new to this forum, and don't know if I should actually be posting because I haven't received an official C-PTSD diagnosis, so I feel kind of weird about it (and even though I might be wrong, I have this gut feeling like I have Complex PTSD).

Anyways, I guess I'm kind of looking for some kind of anchor here, a shot in the dark to see if anyone relates to what I've been experiencing. All week I've either felt great or like everyone is watching me, or really ashamed of every move I make. I felt shameful and selfish today for telling someone that I thought I did well on a paper and presentation. It just feels like I've felt like this before, but can't pinpoint it. As well, I've been having weird physical sensations (I guess this is the best way I can describe them)--when I get really anxious, I shake, but it's more like my head is vibrating, really quickly, and the same has started happening to my hands. Also, sometimes if I smell something, or if the light looks a certain way outside, I don't get flashbacks but feel as if I'm in the moment of a past situation, while still observing and being in the present. I know I'm in the present, but can't take myself out of that moment, and that's usually where the shaking comes in.

Please tell me if anyone can relate or if I'm just going crazy and imagining things.