Hi 
I know in late to respond to this but have only found this forum today. I can so relate to how frustrating it feels to have these episodes. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 3 years now and have been having these episodes, exactly as you describe them since about 4 months in. It's awful because he has been really traumatised by things I've done that almost feel normal to me eg. An overdose, throwing and breaking things, driving recklelessy. To someone who hasn't experience these things before they are terrifying and I have seen how these episodes have effected him in a very negative way. He is super supportive and is doing his absolute best, as am I but I think we both know it's not sustainable in the long term. We have started couples therapy in the last 6 'months and so far has been the most Tremendous help. Learning to communicate better and mostly just giving him a safe space to voice his feelings and concerns. I find myself extremely triggered as well and one of the main issues for us has been him developing a fear that if he speaks his mind and triggers
Me then I'll have one of those crazy episodes and lash out which he obviously wants to avoid at all costs. The means that he has shut down quite a bit with me and counselling has really helped with this and made him feel heard for the first time in a while. Also, if he isn't well aware of all that CPTSD entails then I suggest giving him a lot of info. When my partner stared understanding what was actually going on for me instead of feeling confused
All the time, it was really helpful for him.
I don't at all think it's unfair to want him to stick around. You're struggling now, but you're working on it and obviously Care a lot about him. If he can handle it then by all means encourage him to. If there's one common theme I've seen in the people I know with CPTSD, is this ability to love and care about others very deeply and passionately when not struggling too much. While time may be hard now, it may be more worthwhile than anything if he sticks through it.
I know in late to respond to this but have only found this forum today. I can so relate to how frustrating it feels to have these episodes. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 3 years now and have been having these episodes, exactly as you describe them since about 4 months in. It's awful because he has been really traumatised by things I've done that almost feel normal to me eg. An overdose, throwing and breaking things, driving recklelessy. To someone who hasn't experience these things before they are terrifying and I have seen how these episodes have effected him in a very negative way. He is super supportive and is doing his absolute best, as am I but I think we both know it's not sustainable in the long term. We have started couples therapy in the last 6 'months and so far has been the most Tremendous help. Learning to communicate better and mostly just giving him a safe space to voice his feelings and concerns. I find myself extremely triggered as well and one of the main issues for us has been him developing a fear that if he speaks his mind and triggersMe then I'll have one of those crazy episodes and lash out which he obviously wants to avoid at all costs. The means that he has shut down quite a bit with me and counselling has really helped with this and made him feel heard for the first time in a while. Also, if he isn't well aware of all that CPTSD entails then I suggest giving him a lot of info. When my partner stared understanding what was actually going on for me instead of feeling confused
All the time, it was really helpful for him.
I don't at all think it's unfair to want him to stick around. You're struggling now, but you're working on it and obviously Care a lot about him. If he can handle it then by all means encourage him to. If there's one common theme I've seen in the people I know with CPTSD, is this ability to love and care about others very deeply and passionately when not struggling too much. While time may be hard now, it may be more worthwhile than anything if he sticks through it.