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I know exactly where you're coming from.  And it wasn't just people.  I would have disproportionately weepy responses to saying goodbye to animals, or even a comforting room.  But I'm not there anymore.  Part of me wishes I was.  Part of me is relieved I'm not.  A few years ago I transitioned into feeling nothing for goodbyes, because I feel nothing for those who I would be saying goodbye to.  (I still have a soft spot for animals.)  After a few epic letdowns from family members who I tried to rely on for emotional support, (after getting out of a diabolical lyrics abusive relationship, I find I don't bond enough to feel anything.  I feel like they were my last hold out on hope.   So now I'm numb and feel nothing, and it's kind of scary.  I hope it's a phase.  I think while feeling disproportionately clingy is unhealthy and probably a sign of codependency, it's also an indicator you haven't lost hope.