I have to take (by force if necessary) the opportunity to stand up for myself. I have to take action. I have to!
Forget the fears and what-if's.... just do it... NOW!
I don't have to be perfectly good all of the time, swallowing everyone's emotional bologna while choking my own.
For the first time I texted my dad; something I knew he wouldn't want to hear, about how he makes me feel unimportant. I was panicking, pacing, nervous, scared of his reaction. And to my surprise he acknowledged by feelings. OMG, I almost fell over! OH, the relief!!!! I'm giving myself a HUGE pat on the back and high-five while dancing a jig and whistling. It's just a baby step, but one that I've avoided for 30 years. I'm on a pride-high now, and trying to enjoy it.
Dear ICr- Go sit in the corner and shut up!! You are the one that should be ashamed of yourself!! And if you speak up, I'll beat your @$$!!
I don't have to address my abusers. But I do have to address the junk leftover in my head! -- Breakthrough!
Forget the fears and what-if's.... just do it... NOW!
I don't have to be perfectly good all of the time, swallowing everyone's emotional bologna while choking my own.
For the first time I texted my dad; something I knew he wouldn't want to hear, about how he makes me feel unimportant. I was panicking, pacing, nervous, scared of his reaction. And to my surprise he acknowledged by feelings. OMG, I almost fell over! OH, the relief!!!! I'm giving myself a HUGE pat on the back and high-five while dancing a jig and whistling. It's just a baby step, but one that I've avoided for 30 years. I'm on a pride-high now, and trying to enjoy it.
Dear ICr- Go sit in the corner and shut up!! You are the one that should be ashamed of yourself!! And if you speak up, I'll beat your @$$!!
I don't have to address my abusers. But I do have to address the junk leftover in my head! -- Breakthrough!