I had never heard of CPTSD before and found it on the Internet after looking into the medication I have been prescribed.
I feel like a weight has been lifted after reading some of the threads on here - this is me so much and I feel confused/relieved/until understood and so much more.
I was abused by my older brother for years, I have always felt it couldn't be abuse as he is only 2 years older than me. I know of everything that took place but I can't remember how I felt at the time. I know there was disassociation as I still do that now. When everything stopped I was diagnosed with depression and have suffered from it ever since (24 years) I feel weak and a failure for not getting over things. I still think daily about the abuse and it has never left me for a day. Ever single part of my being has been affected and I don't know who I am. I am so confused and can't understand why I still feel like this after so much time. I want help but don't know where to go. I suppose it doesn't help as my parents found out about the abuse last year and believe it never happened, my brother has told them and the rest of my family I am a lier. My parents have never said they love me since they found out and the rest of my family will no longer speak to me.
I feel like a weight has been lifted after reading some of the threads on here - this is me so much and I feel confused/relieved/until understood and so much more.
I was abused by my older brother for years, I have always felt it couldn't be abuse as he is only 2 years older than me. I know of everything that took place but I can't remember how I felt at the time. I know there was disassociation as I still do that now. When everything stopped I was diagnosed with depression and have suffered from it ever since (24 years) I feel weak and a failure for not getting over things. I still think daily about the abuse and it has never left me for a day. Ever single part of my being has been affected and I don't know who I am. I am so confused and can't understand why I still feel like this after so much time. I want help but don't know where to go. I suppose it doesn't help as my parents found out about the abuse last year and believe it never happened, my brother has told them and the rest of my family I am a lier. My parents have never said they love me since they found out and the rest of my family will no longer speak to me.