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Big thanks to all three of you for replying. Three Roses, I just looked at the website and really like what   Walker has to say. Think I will order his books.
Boatsetsailrose, I know I should speak to my therapist about feeling that I just don't connect with him - it's all part of being the good girl and never getting into any conflict with anybody syndrome. I will try to  work up the courage to talk about it with him. Childhood programming is just so damm persistent, isn't it.
Thanks for the encouragement, Peggy-Sue. I hope things go well for you.

Hi,
I'm hoping that somebody out there can tell me if they understand what has happened to me.

On the plus side, I have always held down a job, paid the rent, bought groceries, put gas in the car, etc. But I have never felt real and have spent most of my life communicating with imaginary friends in my head. i have never been able to form any kind of a close relationship with a real person.

My mother has been dead for over 20 years but I am still afraid of her. The problem is that I have no memories so I have no idea what she could have done to keep me still terrified. It makes me feel I'm crazy.

I have been seeing a therapist but because i have such difficulty connecting with people, I don't feel as if I relate well with him.

Does any of this make sense? Does  anyone else have problems like this?
Thank you.