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So in the past week I found out my Mother is a Narcissist and I her Scapegoat. I'm confused and hurt. She manipulated my whole family and myself into thinking I was crazy for 26 years. My therapist is the one who brought it to my attention. I'm angry and heart sick. She made me feel like nothing. I have journals and writings all the way back to 2001. My mind is racing and I keep going back in my life to every interaction I had with her. I'm seeing everything with new eyes and it's been nothing short of disturbing. All my thoughts are conflicted and I go in and out of reality it feels like. I'm just reaching out because whether I like it or not I know I can't go at this one alone. I lost my son to SIDS in Sept 2012 and now 4 years later I lost the family I thought I had. It's so much grief to hold right now. My heart feels completely heavy and I really need a support system since my family is no longer in the picture. If anyone has any advice please send it my way.