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Thank you Three Roses for your reply and links to Pete Walkers site. The information on flashbacks
Is helpful.

Should I anticipate I will have these strong reactions after sessions and that over time I will get them less often? It has been really rough after these last two therapy sessions. I have never felt like this before.

I am new here and recently diagnosed with CPTSD.

I thought I had done well and got away from my dysfunctional, alcoholic and abusive FOO, and had a realatvely normal adult life. Alot of stress going on now and it has brought the past crashing back to the point of not being able to function, so I was referred to a trauma therapist.

I have had two sessions with my T. We are workng on processing my feelings from some experiences from childhood. I have great difficulty
expressing any feelings from childhood, but have no problem expressing feelings about current life situations. I am Ok when I leave the session, but
Hours later I become a basket case with agitation, shaking, fear and overwhelming anxiety. What I have come to realize with the two sessions I have had, is just how screwed up my childhood really was and the shame I have about it. Just recounting some things about my family and childhood for background information, wiped me out. Hearing myself say these things out loud to someone knocks the wind out of me. My T validates my experiences and tells me good things about me and is compassionate.

I have not told her about the worst experience of abuse and don't know if I can. Since starting therapy, memories and partial memories I have had before but I guess tucked away somewhere, are all resurfacing and and I am scared to death what else might come up.

Is this normal to react this way following therapy? I guess I should speak to my T about this, but what do I say? I am really confused and don't know if I can get through this therapy.