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#1
Thank you both so much for the warm welcome, and for the resources! I ordered the book and started watching the Youtube video by Tian Fayton. Knowledge is power!
#2
Hello Everyone,

I'm a 27 year old female and I'm really glad to be here. For the first time in a long time, this has enabled me to feel some sense of hope.

To make a long story short, I was drawn to this site, because after rattling through my history with anxiety and depression with a new psychiatrist today, she suggested that I might have "complex" PSTD. I had never heard of it, and had always just thought that what I suffer from is panic attacks, agoraphobia, and/or the result of a specific fear I have. However, in reading these posts as well as the general description of Complex PTSD, can relate to all of the experiences of you folks. Right now I feel a mix of emotions - excited that I can pinpoint the problem, but also terrified about what this might mean for me.

To provide some of my personal background, my mother was an alcoholic and my father a hoarder; the latter was also violent at times to me and my siblings (I'm the youngest of 4). My earliest memory is that of having a panic attack, and I have felt extremely anxious most of my life (alternating between chronic and acute forms of anxiety). I have had more panic attacks than I can count, and am extremely afraid of vomiting  for some unknown reason.

A few weeks ago I just moved to the Bay Area from the East coast where I have lived all of my life. I had to move because my fiance started work here, and the transition has been incredibly difficult for me. I am very depressed and anxious - more so than usual. I and am also trying to finish up a PhD that I am completing remotely and not formally employed as a result.  I am a recovering alcoholic with 9 months of sobriety as of today.

I look forward to getting to know all of you and your experiences. I'm really glad this exists.