Hi healingjourney, I completely understand where you are coming from and did not realize how to word it until I read your post. It seems as if no matter how happy or bad the circumstances are in my life that there are always moments when it feels as if the walls are closing in. It tends to hit me late at night and I suddenly feel as though I'm stuck, like my room or house is a prison and the walls are moving in. It feels as though if I do not go run or get out of wherever I am that I will scream and some emotional power will overcome me and take over. It is a scary feeling and I'm sorry you have to deal with it. I've found that one thing that helps me is that when I feel this way I refocus my attention on writing a letter to a friend that means a lot to me or writing down positive characteristics. That is personally what helps me though. I used to hide in closets and listen in as my parents argued and I felt completely helpless and as if everything bad was my fault. Maybe that's why I have this feeling, similar to how your scariest childhood memory is hiding in a closet in the dark. I'm not sure if any of this helped but I wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I'm here with you!