I'm new here, I started EMDR in some frustration after nearly a decade of CBT didn't really get me concrete results. But after a few months of EMDR I'm not real sure that's working either. My late mom was a MN and my father was the classic "flying monkey" and I didn't even understand the clinical def'n of a narcissist until I was 56 years of age. My stress level was so high I'm inclined to state it actually played a significant role in creating my strabismus (since corrected surgically) which made it even HARDER to make friends, and I didn't know I had it because I couldn't see my whole face in a mirror with both eyes! I'm inclined to think that people like myself who I'm calling "year zero" ACoNs (abused from birth) aren't all that likely to get much relief from unassisted EMDR, but of course I defer to professional opinion (I never studied topics very far from engineering). I also can't sleep a wink at might without taking seroquel and I did win a SocSec ddisability award. I'm inclined to think Pete Walker has the correct approach because I read and thoroughly approve of his book on C-PTSD (I read what you said on another post about relational therapy, that may also be part of the answer), problem is he's pretty booked up and I couldn't afford to live in Berkeley and I'm getting my current therapy on Medicare which won't even pay for the 90 minute EMDR sessions I should probably be getting and as I understand it Pete doesn't accept Medicare anyway and I don't know of any "third parties" that would be accessible to me (I'm in Ventura County CA but willing to relocate). Any suggestions on which way I should go next would certainly be appreciated.