Hi, I can feel your pain and sorrow. It is very sad to realize that. I can speak from my point of view and that is that in time it feels less painful and less devastating. I believe the main thing is to keep focusing on the truth and since we are all prone to hide painful facts to survive for me it was very important not to in time start making excuses for them. Like maybe I was to sensitive, who pays attention on people all the time, the were tiered, old etc.