Hi everyone!
I'm not a native English speaker so please excuse any misspelling and grammar mistakes.
I just got the ,okay' to join your community and I'm still a little bit overwhelmed but I'm willing to try my best.
I am 24 years old and just recently learned that I didn't had the childhood bliss I thought I had.
It's still hard for me to understand.
I wasn't mistreated.
I wasn't screamed at or abused.
Nothing.
And that was it.
NOTHING.
My parents thought I would figure everything out by myself.
I was such a smart kid!
Every problem I had, I was on my own with it.
Every problem I thought I couldn't figure out myself was denied.
I was ,,just too dramatic", ,,a drama queen", ,,too much".
Especially when I was struggling in public.
There was no struggling according to my parents.
So I struggled on my own, unsure and so overwhelmed with so many emotions that I couldn't understand yet handle.
And now I am who I am.
Emotionally unavailable, deeply insecure about myself and stuck with the thought of always being ,,too much".
To be quite honest, it is very hard for me to even post this here.
I don't know if I should be vocal about this.
Yet here I am.
Hello everyone
I'm not a native English speaker so please excuse any misspelling and grammar mistakes.
I just got the ,okay' to join your community and I'm still a little bit overwhelmed but I'm willing to try my best.
I am 24 years old and just recently learned that I didn't had the childhood bliss I thought I had.
It's still hard for me to understand.
I wasn't mistreated.
I wasn't screamed at or abused.
Nothing.
And that was it.
NOTHING.
My parents thought I would figure everything out by myself.
I was such a smart kid!
Every problem I had, I was on my own with it.
Every problem I thought I couldn't figure out myself was denied.
I was ,,just too dramatic", ,,a drama queen", ,,too much".
Especially when I was struggling in public.
There was no struggling according to my parents.
So I struggled on my own, unsure and so overwhelmed with so many emotions that I couldn't understand yet handle.
And now I am who I am.
Emotionally unavailable, deeply insecure about myself and stuck with the thought of always being ,,too much".
To be quite honest, it is very hard for me to even post this here.
I don't know if I should be vocal about this.
Yet here I am.
Hello everyone