The last 6 months have been a whirlwind. I've been seeing my therapist for over a year and she recently asked if I'd ever been evaluated for CPTSD, I had not. I came to work with her after years of therapy following both childhood and adult sexual abuse. I'd previously been diagnosed with ADHD as a kid, and OCD, depression and anxiety as a young adult. I always thought the ADHD diagnosis was incorrect but the others made sense until they didn't.
At the end of March I got evaluated and diagnosed with CPTSD. A few weeks later I started taking Zoloft.
I am here because I need to connect with others who can understand. With every light bulb and point of awareness comes another of shame, guilt, loss is right behind it.
I am in a relationship and my symptoms are creating problems - my hyper vigilance, my catastrophic thinking, always things the worst, my short fuse when feeling triggered. My partner has been supportive but I know that this is causing unnecessary stress on the relationship.
My instrusive thoughts are overwhelming. Even though I have all of these goals accomplished and on paper appear "great," I am feeling so much shame and that I am not worthy of love and will not have a healthy relationship and my partner will leave me.
She recently violated my trust and I am really trying to not spiral with my response but feeling so exposed and uncared for.
I'm hoping for some connections and empathy from fellow posters. I would love LGBT participants to connect with for support. I am feeling pretty hopeless.
At the end of March I got evaluated and diagnosed with CPTSD. A few weeks later I started taking Zoloft.
I am here because I need to connect with others who can understand. With every light bulb and point of awareness comes another of shame, guilt, loss is right behind it.
I am in a relationship and my symptoms are creating problems - my hyper vigilance, my catastrophic thinking, always things the worst, my short fuse when feeling triggered. My partner has been supportive but I know that this is causing unnecessary stress on the relationship.
My instrusive thoughts are overwhelming. Even though I have all of these goals accomplished and on paper appear "great," I am feeling so much shame and that I am not worthy of love and will not have a healthy relationship and my partner will leave me.
She recently violated my trust and I am really trying to not spiral with my response but feeling so exposed and uncared for.
I'm hoping for some connections and empathy from fellow posters. I would love LGBT participants to connect with for support. I am feeling pretty hopeless.