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Little mouse, hypervigilant & scared. Always assessing danger & painfully aware. Exhausting but can trust ITSELF to protect. Dreams of finding a comfy home that is respected, safe & kept. 👌♥️ You deserve to be seen, validated, loved & learned. No more hiding who you are,you're heard. Little mouse inside my house, you're pitter patters, earned. You're welcome here anytime, hide all you want, you're yearned.

This is beautifully written. The tiny astronaut analogy depicts the naivety & innocence of a child escaping while the more mature version of you is stuck in the tiny spaceship still trying to protect yourself wondering if they notice & they do. Then they take advantage of innocent, naive and vulnerable you.

I'm sorry. You didn't deserve that. You are a pure precious angel and you're loved. Nobody deserves to be hurt, violated or abused.

You are there
I can see you.
You scream, I can hear you.

Will you look in the whites of my eyes?
I will pay attention to you and go crazy until I have no air left.
Even then will you be like a ghost?
like a floating feather,
That no one noticed?
Because what is special about that?
You might be like the sky,
But people don't raise their heads anymore.
You're here,
I'll touch you, you're right here.
Maybe something in you wanted to play hide and seek,
But I didn't want to be found.


I wrote your prose in mirror for you. We find strength in what we're trying to say. You're important, I see you, but more importantly YOU see YOU! I hope you know how special you are. Not trying to invalidate your experience, but would like you to see yourself through your own eyes, in your own words and written back to you.

With Love, From Me ♥️

I see you. ♥️

Thank you, I should've added I've been in therapy for a few years. I was told I had complex PTSD by my therapist. I'm removed from those situations now and working on my healing. I am in a "good" place in my life now and moving forward just trying to deal with the after effects, mainly the hypervigilance issues I'm dealing with. Always on high alert with everyone and highly suspicious. This has the been the hardest thing for me to overcome. Mainly want to know how others have overcome the hypervigilance.

Thank you for the welcome and advice. I appreciate you.

Hello, I am here to support and receive peer support for CPTSD.

The roots of trauma in the history of my life run deep. I am 46 years old now, but I grew up as the only child to a father who spent most of my life up until I was 18 in prison being raised by a mom who struggled with addiction and attempted suicide. She survived thankfully. But those experiences and being alone ALOT with no siblings caused me to internalize alot of things and deal with them on my own. I was pregnant by the time I was 17 years old, married to the father for 21 years who betrayed me, which led me into the next toxic relationship with a man who ended up breaking my eye socket and cheekbone, strangling me & ultimately committed suicide by police.

I carry so much shame, I have an extremely hard time trusting or forming healthy relationships.

I'm hoping to mainly learn about controlling hypervigilance and living in a constant state of survival. It is exhausting & all I want to feel is safety.

Thank you for having me. I hope to be a support to others and grow myself by being here.

If you have tips for hypervigilance which includes being suspicious of everyone and extremely untrusting I am desperate to heal this in myself.