Hello!
I managed to escape the traumas induced by my parents (and other adults) at a fairly young age and swore to myself I´d never live like them or let myself by hurt by anyone again. I think we all do that to various degrees, and at least for me, it turned into running blindly in directions I thought were away from harm that brought me into new types of it or somehow brought me right back to where I´d started. I spent most of my adults years so far repeating patterns that I thought I´d broken away from, although it is hard to imagine how I could have broken away from anything when I avoided processing any of my traumas in favour of working constantly or engaging in other avoidant activities.
I have been chipping away at things over the years, sure, and I still find it nearly impossible to have any kind of proper relationship with another human being, and I have such a mean and judgmental temper still. I am beyond over it, and I am feeling readier than ever to sit down and really figure out what needs to be learned so that I can move forward as a healthy individual who offers respect, care, and healing to others.
I am very excited to participate in this forum as it´s my first time entering into a community where we´re all focused on the same things and going through some of the same growth processes. I´m looking forward to learning and sharing!
I managed to escape the traumas induced by my parents (and other adults) at a fairly young age and swore to myself I´d never live like them or let myself by hurt by anyone again. I think we all do that to various degrees, and at least for me, it turned into running blindly in directions I thought were away from harm that brought me into new types of it or somehow brought me right back to where I´d started. I spent most of my adults years so far repeating patterns that I thought I´d broken away from, although it is hard to imagine how I could have broken away from anything when I avoided processing any of my traumas in favour of working constantly or engaging in other avoidant activities.
I have been chipping away at things over the years, sure, and I still find it nearly impossible to have any kind of proper relationship with another human being, and I have such a mean and judgmental temper still. I am beyond over it, and I am feeling readier than ever to sit down and really figure out what needs to be learned so that I can move forward as a healthy individual who offers respect, care, and healing to others.
I am very excited to participate in this forum as it´s my first time entering into a community where we´re all focused on the same things and going through some of the same growth processes. I´m looking forward to learning and sharing!