Hello. This site was mentioned in a redit post so I checked it out. I am happy this exists! I have been feeling so lost and confused.
To avoid someone recognizing me ill just go by my username. Made it by randomly generating words till I got two I liked together.
I have not been able to get officially diagnosed yet due to time and financial restraints. But I have very strong suspicions due to my past and present.
I hope to find a type of therapy that works for me and that I can afford with no insurance.
I do wonder if, like my dad, I should be on disability too. My narc ex said it would be me giving up. But idk. I can't seem to work full time without getting dysregulated and overwhelmed.
I hope to find solace here in mutual understanding and relatability.
And some help for recovery while I am unable to get therapy.
Thank you for your time! ❤️
To avoid someone recognizing me ill just go by my username. Made it by randomly generating words till I got two I liked together.
I have not been able to get officially diagnosed yet due to time and financial restraints. But I have very strong suspicions due to my past and present.
- Bullied from a young age. Due to being socially strange.
- Lost my mom around 17.
- Step dad with anger and rage issues. And chronic liar. possible narc.
- Passively shunned from him before college.
- Moved in with bio dad. Hoarder with ocd and other mental disorders, on disability.
- Moved out to get away from it, but couldn't afford it. Ended up homeless and squatting in an abandoned complex.
- Moved in with a perfect stranger to get back on track.
- Got first job and car at 23.
- The emotional neglect from this helpful stranger wore on me.
- Dated and moved in with an strongly suspected narc.
- Chaotic lifestyle ensued with this narc that I ended up marrying out of blind ignorance.
- Tons of emotional abuse and violent threats and reactive abuse from this.
- He started physical abuse so I left.
- Currently with a trusted friend and beginning to try to recover from it all.
- Lost my fur babies the narc got without asking me. I loved them like my own. But lost some due to his poor ability to care for them. In the process of finding the rest homes. It's bee hard on me to have to give up my fur children. But he was and is using them as bait to try to keep me around.
I hope to find a type of therapy that works for me and that I can afford with no insurance.
I do wonder if, like my dad, I should be on disability too. My narc ex said it would be me giving up. But idk. I can't seem to work full time without getting dysregulated and overwhelmed.
I hope to find solace here in mutual understanding and relatability.
And some help for recovery while I am unable to get therapy.
Thank you for your time! ❤️