Hello all,
I wonder if others here have gone through a similar trauma and can share what has/hasn't worked for them.
Through a lot of research, I found out that I was born with a neck injury, likely because I had to be brought out quickly since there were complications at birth. This issue went undetected by my parents when I was born but caused me a lot of pain.
I apparently cried a lot more than a usual baby would and leaned my head back to relieve the pain, which my parents interpreted as 'he does not want to be with us'. So they gave me space when I needed comfort and I had no agency as a baby to do anything about my pain.
Now, fast forward 40 years later - anxiety was first triggered during covid. Over the last few years I have worked with therapists to get to the bottom of what happened to me and what triggers my anxiety: The fear of being sick or in pain, and having seemingly no one that is there for me. The last part is critical: I am not really afraid of getting sick, it's the 'left alone' part that I struggle with. I live abroad currently so that doesn't make it easier.
Over the last 12 months, this also manifested in physical symptoms: From neck pain, to abdominal pain. On and off, sometimes I would have a sore neck, then later sore abdominal muscles.
To my question: I am currently on a path to find a way to help myself. Integrative therapy options like IFS, somatic therapy or even EMDR have come up in my research. I feel like talk therapy alone has not yielded any more progress for me. I am also looking into body work options. That field of options is large so I wanted to reach out and see if anyone else has had a similar story maybe and can offer advice?
Thank you in advance,
I wonder if others here have gone through a similar trauma and can share what has/hasn't worked for them.
Through a lot of research, I found out that I was born with a neck injury, likely because I had to be brought out quickly since there were complications at birth. This issue went undetected by my parents when I was born but caused me a lot of pain.
I apparently cried a lot more than a usual baby would and leaned my head back to relieve the pain, which my parents interpreted as 'he does not want to be with us'. So they gave me space when I needed comfort and I had no agency as a baby to do anything about my pain.
Now, fast forward 40 years later - anxiety was first triggered during covid. Over the last few years I have worked with therapists to get to the bottom of what happened to me and what triggers my anxiety: The fear of being sick or in pain, and having seemingly no one that is there for me. The last part is critical: I am not really afraid of getting sick, it's the 'left alone' part that I struggle with. I live abroad currently so that doesn't make it easier.
Over the last 12 months, this also manifested in physical symptoms: From neck pain, to abdominal pain. On and off, sometimes I would have a sore neck, then later sore abdominal muscles.
To my question: I am currently on a path to find a way to help myself. Integrative therapy options like IFS, somatic therapy or even EMDR have come up in my research. I feel like talk therapy alone has not yielded any more progress for me. I am also looking into body work options. That field of options is large so I wanted to reach out and see if anyone else has had a similar story maybe and can offer advice?
Thank you in advance,