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#1
Please Introduce Yourself Here / New to Site
March 26, 2016, 06:07:16 AM
Hello,

This is quite scary, but I want to introduce myself.

I have not officially been diagnosed with C-PTSD but I have been doing a lot of research and I know I have many of the symptoms.

I was in an abusive relationship a couple of years ago. After I finally got out of the relationship I eventually discovered that my ex has Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Everything started to make sense and I began my healing process after slowly realizing I wasn't crazy and doing a lot of research. Discovering C-PTSD has been a bit of a shock for me and difficult to accept. I know I have much more healing to continue and I think joining this forum will be beneficial for my healing process.

I am in college (where I met my NPD ex) and have a class with my ex, that I need to take this semester to get my degree. I struggle going to the class quite a bit as I have been practicing no contact and trying to avoid as many reminders of the abuse as possible. I try and tell myself to be strong and that I have a right to be there and should not be forced out by fear of him, but I really struggle just sitting in the same room as him. I know I am so fortunate to have gotten out of the relationship when I did and am hoping by connecting with others and learning more about my C-PTSD I will be able to move forward with healing.

I would like to see a therapist to help sort through what I am going through but my health insurance plan does not cover it and I cannot currently afford to pay out of pocket. Any advice on this or knowledge of resources to help pay for therapy appointments?

Thanks for reading.