I don't even know where to start. All I know is that I'm tired. I'm tired of pretending I'm fine. I'm tired of feeling so hopeless. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of not mattering to anyone. I'm exhausted everyday. I don't want to get up out of bed. I have no joy left inside me just heartache. I don't know how to cope. No one checks in on me to make sure I'm okay or not dead. I check in on people because they matter to me, i just don't get the same in return. If I just disappeared no one would notice. My therapist wants me to make friends with people but I don't even know how. Everyone i have tried to befriend has either screwed me over or ghosted me. I'm just so...tired.